First blog post!

This is my first post! Too bad it couldn't be a happier one...
Just a few more days until Bryce deploys, and I'm going CRAZY! I can't get enough time with him before he leaves. It's going to be a very long 6 months. Fortunately, I'm starting school right after he leaves, so I'll be working towards my nursing degree while he's gone. That should keep me very busy. I'm going to spend all my time studying and taking care of the girls and our house.. and this insane dog! I need someone to come train her for me because I can't handle her! She's a gorgeous wolf hybrid with a sweet nature, but holy crap she's STUPID! Haha. I plan on keeping her around though to keep the other side of the bed warm for me while Bryce is gone :) This past year has been insane for me. I really hope 2012 is better. I lost two of my three good friends all because of a psychotic ex husband. It's been lonely and confusing. I've spent a lot of time wondering what I've done wrong, but it's not me and Bryce has helped me see that. I've spent even more time fighting with my harebrained mother who I just CAN NOT seem to get along with. There's so much about her I wish I could change. I wish she was still the mother I knew when I was little. I guess I'll just have to accept that she's changed and let it go. . .
I can't believe it's Jan. 10th already. I can't believe Bryce is really leaving. I'm going to miss him so much, but I think I've done pretty well preparing for this. The first few weeks are going to be extremely hard but we'll be okay. I'm afraid that my youngest will forget him. I think that's what I'm most worried about. . . that and one of us changing in the next 1/2 year and not being able to get along when he comes home. :( I feel heartbroken for his kids being gone from him for so long as well. I'm going to miss them too. I can't wait for this to be over. I'm ready for school, ready for warmer weather, ready to FINALLY be a NURSE! The girls are about to start daycare (SCARY!)... Oh I'm worrying about way too many things at once!