Memories

... that's what's keeping me going right now. Seeing his pictures, his clothes, smelling his cologne. However, we've only got about 12 weeks left! Holy crap that's not long at all! So mostly I have been filled with nothing but excitement. These are my last 12 weeks alone, then Bryce is home and it's together forever. Nothing could make me happier. I hope he knows how much I love him, and that I would do anything in the world for him and our little family of 6. (okay, maybe not so little!) I've never thought much about a family.. at least not having a huge one! But it couldn't be more perfect. And a few years from now, we'll be complete with 7! 5 kids, 2 adults... outnumbered but hey, at least we'll have fun! I just love how much love there is in this house when all of us are together. The kids playing and laughing, Bryce and I cuddling on the couch. We both get stressed out with them sometimes (like anyone with a 5,4,3,&2 year old would do!!!), but we both know that we really are blessed. We may wake up in the morning to Kennedi screaming, Annabelle putting too much toilet paper in the potty, Taryn whining about being hungry, and Ethan spraying bleach all over his clothes and the tv, but we love them :) I really couldn't be happier with my life. I certainly would be happier at the moment if he was home, but I know it's only temporary... and what's 12 weeks of waiting for a lifetime of happieness?! This semester is FINALLY over! With the exception of an A&P test I still need to take next week. Assuming I do okay on that test (and I think even if I don't) I'll have all A's for the semester! I'm so glad that school is working out for me even though it's been 6 years since high school! I really love my psychology classes and am thinking about going somewhere with that as well. Two degrees? Eh, why not? Kristen the nurse and the psychologist? I can fix you up inside and out! :) The A&P class sucks :( It's not interesting to me AT ALL. I think it was just a really bad choice doing it online. . . taking 4 more classes between now and the first week of August so I should be up to 34 hours by the end of the summer. Score! Ahhh. Time for sleep:) Getting ready for Kennedi's birthday party tomorrow! Since it's 1AM it's now officially her birthday! Happy 2nd Birthday, Kennedi baby! Mommy loves you so much!

Look how tiny she was in my hands!

Update:)

Almost through with this semester and halfway through with the deployment! Yay! So far all A's, GO ME! I did have to drop the Texas Government class though. That class was rediculous. But a W is better than an F! Just had Taryn's 4th birthday this weekend. I can't believe my baby is already 4! She had a fun birthday at Prime Time. :)

Bryce and I have set a wedding date (oh yeah, we're getting married by the way). March 2, 2013! Yay Kristen Higley! Looking at places in Utah with the help of my awesome soon to be sister-in-law Cerrisse! I'm so lucky to have found such a great man, who has such a wonderful family. I'm so in love with him, and love my new family so much as well. I can't wait to one day live closer to them and have them more in our lives. We've talked about PCSing to Albuquerque. We'll see what happens! :) Kennedi misses Bryce a lot. I'm so glad he stays constant in her mind and isn't forgetting him. She mentions him often and asks to call him. I'm so lucky that they have such a great relationship, as I do with Ethan and Annabelle, who I'm missing like crazy as well!

Oh, I got a new car!! A Mazda3, white, black and tan interior, the i Touring (highest class) model. Love, love, love it!!! I've wanted this car since I was 15. She's a sexy beast! :) So things are going well, and hopefully spring and summer flies by! So ready for my love to be home!

xoxo,
the future Mrs. Higley ;)

same old, same old.

I'm LOVING school! Time's going by faster as well. I'm very thankful for that. I think I'm going to start painting the house soon. All the rooms in here need to be repainted. :( Can't decide if it's worth it or not though, because we may be looking at houses when Bryce gets home from deployment. Either way he hates this house, so I know we won't be here TOO much longer. Anyone want to train a dog for me?! I can't handle her hyperactivity! If I took her to the vet I seriously think they would start medicating her. haha. Well, no babies here tonight. Just me, the nook, and the xbox. Waiting up to hear from Bryce after he gets off of his shift. Wanted to post this pic of the promise ring he got me for Christmas! Kristen Higley. Seems just right. :) I couldn't have asked for a better person in my life. He has such a great personality, and I love his family. I wish we lived closer, and hopefully we will one day! I already love them to death! I'm missing Annabelle and ETHAN!!!! . . .working on his first carepackage/valentine's day present to send to him. Not too sure what to put in there. Thinking about going shopping with Marci this weekend to find some stuff. I'm sure she wants to send some things to Matt as well. Hope everyone else gets to be with their SO on v-day. (if anyone reads this! haha!) This is more for me than anything really. Venting, keeping occupied, etc.

Still hanging in there. . .

It's been 8 days since he left and I'd say I'm doing pretty well now. Already seem to have adjusted to being here without him. Hopefully this goes by quickly! Being able to FaceTime is nice, but he gets really crappy reception. . . so either it's a short call, or he has to go somewhere where he can get good reception which he can only do a few times a week. My classes are going well, so far I've gotten all points possible on all of my assignments :) Yippee!! Kennedi isn't really liking daycare too much yet, but she'll come around. She throws huge fits and gets really upset when I drop her off, but she's fine and playing when I'm back to pick her up. She's only having to stay about 4 hours twice a week at this point, because two of my classes are online. Working on making some new friends while Bryce is gone. So far that's working out pretty well. Marci's staying with me some while he's away as well so she doesn't have to drive back and forth so much. I can't WAIT to finally be done with my degree and be able to put on my scrubs every day and go to work!
Ahhh... but for now I'm just holding on tight to this PROMISE RING, reminding myself every day he'll be home before I know it, and focusing on school and some great books I'm reading right now! (the twilight series, i haven't read them before!!) I love you Bryce Higley, and I am going to support you in every way possible and be waiting for you as soon as you step off that plane in July. :)

deployment.

Well, I dropped him off this morning. Oh my gosh what am I going to do without him here for SIX MONTHS?! This hurts. . . really. I can't wait for that first phone call to know his plane landed safely. I'm ready for pictures too! I'm so anxious to see what it's like where he is. I want to know that he has everything he needs, that's he's comfortable... Lol before he left I kept trying to get him to take some snacks with him... kept trying to feed him. I feel like a worried mother! Six months usually goes by so fast, but I'm afraid this time it won't. I'm going to stick to my school work and try to stay entertained. Oh geez......

First blog post!

This is my first post! Too bad it couldn't be a happier one...
Just a few more days until Bryce deploys, and I'm going CRAZY! I can't get enough time with him before he leaves. It's going to be a very long 6 months. Fortunately, I'm starting school right after he leaves, so I'll be working towards my nursing degree while he's gone. That should keep me very busy. I'm going to spend all my time studying and taking care of the girls and our house.. and this insane dog! I need someone to come train her for me because I can't handle her! She's a gorgeous wolf hybrid with a sweet nature, but holy crap she's STUPID! Haha. I plan on keeping her around though to keep the other side of the bed warm for me while Bryce is gone :) This past year has been insane for me. I really hope 2012 is better. I lost two of my three good friends all because of a psychotic ex husband. It's been lonely and confusing. I've spent a lot of time wondering what I've done wrong, but it's not me and Bryce has helped me see that. I've spent even more time fighting with my harebrained mother who I just CAN NOT seem to get along with. There's so much about her I wish I could change. I wish she was still the mother I knew when I was little. I guess I'll just have to accept that she's changed and let it go. . .
I can't believe it's Jan. 10th already. I can't believe Bryce is really leaving. I'm going to miss him so much, but I think I've done pretty well preparing for this. The first few weeks are going to be extremely hard but we'll be okay. I'm afraid that my youngest will forget him. I think that's what I'm most worried about. . . that and one of us changing in the next 1/2 year and not being able to get along when he comes home. :( I feel heartbroken for his kids being gone from him for so long as well. I'm going to miss them too. I can't wait for this to be over. I'm ready for school, ready for warmer weather, ready to FINALLY be a NURSE! The girls are about to start daycare (SCARY!)... Oh I'm worrying about way too many things at once!